Fiction or Reality...?

Just checked my flist before attempting to sleep, and saw this from

Cut for squee about Trent Reznor, Great Northern, and a couple of awesome books. Oh, and a rant about 30STM and Walmart. WTF.

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Ok, so I'm completely SCREWED for schoolwork, and projects and all that fun stuff. Damn end of semester is too bloody much. Too much to do of everything. Blah. I haven't done hardly any holiday shopping yet because I'm very, very, very broke, and don't really have anyway of paying off my visa until I get $ from parents for xmas, and/or stuff I don't like that i can sell on Ebay. Ack. Money sucks. I'm so far behind in schoolwork, and I have...9 days left to write close to 30 000 words to meet the deadline for nano. *pulls hair out and runs screaming from room...*

...Ok, I'm back. I hate the classes I'm taking right now. They're kind of pointless. I haven't been to spanish in over a week, and so far, have missed nothing, because everything's in the book! There's this fucking creative writing final project i have to do for my latin american class(it was either that, or write a research paper, and um, yeah, creative is always better for me)...but its the most vague thing ever. Write 15 pages of either poetry(200 lines per poem!), drama(write a play!) or short stories, based on something in the class, something based on or about Latin America. Argh. Don't really have any idea what the fuck to write here, and its due in 2 weeks and is worth 40% of my mark. Any suggestions peoples?
I'm trying to get the application stuff together to apply for Concordia, which is awesome, but stressful, and omfg there's way too many courses I wanna take at that school. I have a feeling if i took everything I wanted, i'd end up with like 4 degrees or something lol. i can't wait till next year, with Stephy and i living together in Montreal. I just need to figure out how we're gonna make it until then....*sigh*
Book rec of late: Dreaming the Dark by Starhawk
-Amazing book. I'm not even halfway through yet, and it's already changed my worldview. *loves* I have the spiral dance at home, from years ago when i went on my first little wicca kick, but never got through the whole thing. Now i kinda can't wait to get back to may parent's place after exams and read it, if it's anything like this. I need to go pick a Borges oem for my presentation tomorrow. *whimper* Hopefully my body won't sprout hives from nervousness again...

And, because i love to procrastinate, i found this from peta2, and was highly amused. I want my nugget to travel! So people from various provinces and states, and places in the UK, clicky:D

So, so, so happy right now. Over the fucking moon. Bounce bounce. I cried happy tears for the first time in a really long while tonight, because I have the best friend in the world. I don't know if anyone on my flist are even going to get the significance of this, but I feel like I need to document it somehow, so I can look back on it and remember it was a really awesome happy feeling/memory/night, despite all the shite that's going on in my life right now, i can't even be bothered to care.

for anyone that knows me, I have two obsessions: 30STM/the Echelon, and concerts in general, and football(Arsenal). Tonight my bestest friend got me the 30 Seconds to Mars yearbook on Ebay. Somehow. She's amazing, and I love her so much. She's paid some insane amount of money(she won't tell me how much) for the yearbook, and I'll be getting it next week, and I'm still a little in shock. i feel like crying again, because i feel so loved right now, and this is *bliss*. All the other b/s in my life has disappeared, just for tonight, and I may even do some work on all the assignments that are late for my classes, because this just gives me inspiration for, like, infinity. All I'm going to have to do is look back on this night and *instant happiness*.

I love my friend.

To give whoever(if anyone)reads this some significance as to why this yearbook, and my friend getting it impossibly for me as a gift, is so important right now...the yearbook all sold-out in pre-order, back in 03-04..when i knew Jared Leto existed, but i din't know his name, much less that he made amazing music with his brother, so I had no chance of getting one when they came out. They only made a limited number of copies(only a couple of 1000 I think), and the boys forbid anyone from reselling them, or posting pictures of them anywhere, so since I've been a fan, I've only seen 3 on ebay(and I've been a fan since the beginning of 06, Echelon since summer of 06...which is crazy, since this has been such a huge part of my life, and taken it over completely. My only tattoos are 30STM related, or related to another band I fell in love with because of 30(Envy on the Coast).

*SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*

So amazing that she'd do this for me, and yes, i feel bad that we're breaking the guys' rules to not resell it...but I'm not the one selling it, I'm getting it as a gift, and the fact that it's even possible is too amazing to contemplate, and i couldn't pass up the oppurtunity. Have I mentioned I love my Stephy?
When i'd seen the other couple on Ebay, I was always like OMG,I want it!...but was never able to fork over the money(the last one I saw before this one went for $750), and tonight when she won it and sent me an awesome email...it was my birthday and christmas and halloween and new years and every other holiday and fun night ever all rolled into one. I never ever thought in my wildest dreams that I'd would ever be able to even look at one, considering no one i know has it, and now I'll be getting it in the mail in a week!

...Now all we need is for 30 to come back and play in Canada sometime soon, so I can take my finally converted Echelon best friend to a show. *hint hint Jared, you were in Montreal for Mr. Nobody, and you loved it, and the word on the street is that you did buy that loft in t.o., so come back already!

I love life at this moment, even though i'm screwed for work, and have pretty well maxed out my visa with no means of paying it back except random $ from my parents, and i have to go back to their house for the long weekend, but I really don't care about any of that shit right now. It can wait, because I've been really happy like this so rarely. I'm gonna go finish the Halloween 30STM fic I was writing for Stephy, and then write some for NaNoWriMo, finally, and then possibly my Spanish paper that should have been in two hours ago lol.

I've never had a true best friend till I found Stephy, and thanks to the Powers that Be for letting us find each other, because i seriously don't know what I'd do without her. Aaaaand we get to live together and go to Concordia together next year, which is going to be amazing! Amazing course selection! And we can stay there through grad school! And, hello, it's Montreal!

*happydance*
*loves the world*

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...OK, so freak out to a draft I didn't know i saved. Don't remember when I wrote this. Weird.I'm posting it cuz, well, I need to know I'm not entirely insane. And now, here I am, a couple of weeks later at least, and much has happened, and I'm not really sure where to begin.( Read more... )

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I haven't written in forever. I started writing this back in February, after i rewatched my so-called life, and fell in love with Jordan Catalano all over again(not like i wasn't in love with jared Leto already, but Catalano is still...*swoons* Anyway, off topic. This starts off where Episode 19 finished(right after Angela gets in the car with Jordan).I wrote 26 pages of this fic, and then my computer crashed. I'm gonna attempt to rewrite most of it, but here is the little bit I had sent to a friend(and was lucky enough she saved it). Love, feedback, or even general squeeing about MSCL is appreciated:P

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This is ToC 2007...amazing photos by Caio Salvagno, my favorite photographer. Flickr won't let me save these, so I can't post them(like all my other pix) to Facebook, so i'm posting them here, so everyone can see how awesome they are. This is RJ Perry, from Evaline, this awesome band with the most energy i've EVER seen on stage. I was lucky enough to be able to see them play 5 times already, as I went to 5 Taste of Chaos shows, and i'm gonna see them again 3 more times in August during Warped. Go download "Calm Touching" everybody:)

Matthew Walter Wachter on the bass...!
Mattie, I'm going to miss you so much. I love you to pieces, and wish you all the best in everything that you do. Good luck with Libby and your family, and please don't forget your Echelon. Hope to see you rocking out somewhere, sometime in the future.

PROVEHITO IN ALTUM to a new beginning...

OMFG, I'm actually posting fic to here. This is a little surreal. It's crap, but I promised Em I would do this crazy little challenge she came up with for hols. Its 12 days of Christmas drabbles(or at least, they're supposed to be drabbles. The word count for this ended up at over 500 words*blushes* Ah well, at least i'm writing something.

It's only Jay/Shan slash if you squint, so, PG?
The prompt was Snow...

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Ok, so, I'm apologizing in advance to all the footy ppl on my flist who really don't wanna hear me ramble about a band, but , well, I can't seem to help myself:)30 Seconds to Mars has officially taken over my brain. ( Read more... )

*waves to Echelon*

Woot! I'm actually posting. Somethign important people, so all of you on here who aren't Echelon, go check out www.30secondstomars.com (as well as this link)for info on the best band in this universe. *insane squee* must post pix of my last week adventure at a later date. Echelon Unite!

This is kind of insane. I haven't updated for so long, not because I've had nothing to say, but because I couldn't be bothered writing it down, or I was too busy to, and by the time i found the time to write it down, the thought, the emotion behind the feeling was gone. I have no idea whether this post is supposed to have a point or what, i just know that I miss writing. I hadn't in a long while, except a little fic that I still haven't posted. There's too much to do and not enough time to do it in, and I've been getting this curious feeling lately like I'm running out of time. I don't know why. Time for what? freedom, perhaps. my freshman year of uni is over in a month, and I've come to the realization that it's bloody terrifying to have to go back to my parent's house and pretend like everything is normal, that's nothing's changed, that I haven't changed a helluva lot from the person I was this time last year, and that we're not still ignoring the elephant in the corner. i don't know if i have the guts to tell them that I don't want to go home, just because Mom asked me to, about easter, and that I'd rather stay with my friends here for the little bit of time left I have to spend with them before stephy goes off to Kingston, and jules to pei, and I may see them this summer, but I might not, and either way it's gonna be a massive change from living downstairs from these guys since september. It's amazing how close we've gotten since we started here, and next year won't be the same:( Emma and I will be living together, which will be wonderful:D, but I don't even know if Steph is coming back to MTA, and Jules and Andee and Sam will all be living off campus in separate houses, and it's a little scary. The work's gonna get harder, and I still haven't found a job for this summer:( I'm getting about 500 back from income tax, which i'm gonna put away so Jules and I can do SWAP next year, but i'll still need about 2500 more. I hope I can make that(and save it in 4 months, if I get a good enough job). Blargh. Everything's hard right now. Steph and Emma and I watched Before Sunset a little while ago, and Emma fell asleep, and Steph and I chatted, and I got to thinking about all this stuff and it just started freaking me out. The Dreamers last night, and Before Sunset tonight both had some great messages, and I'm sure I'm way too tired to tell about how wonderful and shitty life is at the moment, and what I've realized thanks to these movies, but I'll do it when I'm more awake. Not quite sure why I'm so tired, considering I slept most of the afternoon, and I'm really hoping I don't have mono, because that would just completely suck. really fucking sleepy all of a sudden and am having trouble keeping my head up, so i'm gonna sleep, and i'll be more coherent after brunch tomorrow.
yay.
night night!

Well...procrastinating AGAIn. I have 3 midterms starting in 5 hours and i haven't really studied yet. Methinks I'm screwed, but a friend sent me this:
You are pansexual.


What is your sexual orientation?
brought to you by Quizilla ...so I just had to post it:)
*hugs to all*
*runs off to study Spanish*

I have absolutely no idea why I'm writing now:P It might have something to do with the alcohol(2 Smirnoff Ice) and the fact that I'm kinda giddy. I'm also legally 19 now, so I can go buy liquor once i get off these damn crutches(damn black ice!).
I think my main question wasfor everybody else who have video ipods on here. I got a 25$ gift certificate for iTunes from my dad, under the impression that I could buy tv shows like lost, but it seems it is only on the American site, and also that I can't buy music or tv from other countries sites, which is very annoying. I wanted the new Will Young 'All Time Love' video, and Jamie Cullum had an exclusive EP out that isn't even remotely available in Canada. I'm not even sure if most canadians know who he is;it's kinda annoying.

That's my rant tonight. i'm just going to think about the wonderful Liverpool/Man U match in a few hours and not how not one of my friends from home remembered my birthday. Argh. When I get off the crutches i'm gonna make it a point of celebrating at the pub:)

I have to be up in 7 and something hours to watch the match so i better go sleep. I hope everyone has a good night. I really hope i don't get sick in the morning. I don't want this happy feeling to go away, especially since my boys lost today:(

Night night all!

( Read more... ) I've been watching a helluva lotta movies lately: Rent, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Life of Brian, Velvet Goldmine, Narnia, and Assault on Precinct 13. ( Read more... )

I really should go work some more on my Secret Santa fic...do you think it's possible to get it to California by Xmas if i send it on the 20th? *hopes*

*runs off to write frantically*

I miss my roommate:( She's on her way to BC now, on her way back to Osaka, and she only left this morning but this room feels like a bloody tomb. Even my neighbor with the super loud voice that projects through walls talking doesn't help, 'cause there's no j-pop in the background...She burnt me a CD with some of her fave songs on it, but if anyone else could tell me of some japanese music(doesn't have to be j-pop, just whatever)that I could find, that would be great. I know I'm being super sentimental right now, but I can't help it:(
I'm hoping it'll go away tomorrow because I need to study for my linguistics exam at some point.
Julie is going to help me decorate, and I'm going to help her decorate her empty half of the room tonight, probably really late because neither of us will be able to sleep again, I'm sure.
Probably gonna go to supper in a bit. I spoke to my mom about the library fines, and she was mad, but not too mad because she knew i was upset about shiho....I hope it'll all work out and dad won't take back my iPod for losing the books...
Gonna go ad try and get my Limewire working; I'll probably update later to quell the boredom even though i technically have studying and a secret santa fic to start:P

Oh. My. Goddess.
*gasp* *sob* *sniffle*
Fighting back the damn lump in my throat right now o. ver IYAP. Damn people for writing such good Snarry. I figure I'm going to be crying enough with Shiho leaving in 2 and a half hours; and I don't need to cry now. I haven't really; I've just spent the last 12 hours trying to fight the massive lump in my throat.
*sigh*
Just...beautiful. And heartbreaking. And even after all that beauty, i'm still sure this was a long(and will be longer!) bad day.
I haven't slept yet, I'm just waiting up for my roommie to leave, to head back to Osaka on the 8:30 bus, and it's going to be awful, with everybody crying. I probably will too, as much as I don't want to, but 3 and a half months is a long time to share a room with someone and not feel sad that they're leaving. Teh girl was a bloody pain at time , but she's a sweetheart that I'm going to miss(though I won't miss the drinking parties till 4 am in our room). I miss sleep, so I'll (presumably) be able to get back to that. It's odd that before i came here to uni, i had never shared a room before, but now I can't imagine the bloody place without her:(
Really fucking tired all of a sudden. Damn.
Must have a horrible talk with my mum tomorrow about money. Am having awful problems with school library, and have managed to have alloted $250 in fines between 2 lost books and late fees and the thingy with the journals. Argh. I really hope I can find the books. It's stupid it's 100$ a book, even when they're paperbacks. I'm really hoping they're at my parent's house, cause if not I'm screwed.
Blah. Must sleep, if only a little.

GOTHICS! - Deep, dark, mysterious and melodramatic.
You are drawn to write tales of the shadows and
what might lurk there. Could it be Love? Or
Madness? Anne Rice and Brahm Stoker are your
guides.


What Kind of Novel Should I Write?
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yay:D

Totally procrastinating...no more papers this semester thank Goddess, butnow I have 3 exams to study for that i haven't started yet9psych on Thurs, English on Sat. and Linguistics nexzt thurs:(....but then I'm done! YIPPEE!

On a sad, disappointed, really-happy-for-them-and-feeling-bad-that-I'm-upset-and-jealous note, two of my best friends have managed to get tickets to see COLDPLAY in Ottawa this spring break!!! they managed to get the best tickets you could get(over 100$) because my friend's brother just happened to get 4 tickets and the 2 of them are going and i'm not:( Wah. I love Coldplay. They said they would bring back lots of pix, and I'm hoping when i make it to england next year(twice! for spring break with the smae two friends:d and then the whole summer with SWAP, that i can get to see them at some point:d i'm just not going to think about it now because I seriously need to study. Hopefully i can update later when my brain has friend from all the evil Psychology.

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